Okay so that last part was getting long .I’m going to have to split this into..well I don’t know the draft looks four parts but I don’t know the other parts will also most likely go up today.So with our further addue here is part two (what is this doctor Seuss )
Right back to where we were we’ll get you keyed up on the context so I’m going to introduce you to the people in going to talk about and then give a brief time line.
Georgia is OBSESSED with him.She called what was essentially public dibs on him on a school trip and the rest is history.I hear you oh so non existent readers so what she’s not even close to him rose so what some girl likes him …. well I made really close friends with her .Just to elaborate on the obsession her BFF Lola jokingly said she was pregnant with his kid(don’t you just wish you could bleach your mind) she said she liked the name Maisie the baby shower would be orange- his favourite colour -and I quote the baby would have his sexy and his sexy hand and his sexy smile then I left the table to grab my book and when I came back she said it was goood I do not want to know the contents of that conversation.Like Georgia i doubt you were even wearing a real bra yet calm yourself (I know I said it was doctor Seuss but this is turning Louise rennison real quick)
She convinced me to put me first for once and do if I wanted to because Georgia doesn’t give up as I write this she’s asked him out four times.She convinced me not to just sit back and get hurt
Georgia’s close friend at my confidant she kept me Sane through out this process.Georgia and I are just as close to her so she felt a little guilty and I briefly thought she told them it was my turn to be guilty she’s been so great .
Thank God she was around she was the only one who could comfort me due in my mini panic attacks and she helped me through the after math .I would have ran of a cliff by now if it wasn’t for her
Thought it would be fun to watch .If you’re a sadist then she was right .Just kidding she was great too.
My childhood friend I hadn’t seen in ages was there to make me laugh .She succeeded at her job
September 2017 I meet him in all his nerdy haloness .
Early October 2017 I definitely like him now every time i can’t sleep I wait up till 11:11and wish for him to like me
Early October 2017 to January. He is my closest guy friends not tell him all my secrets close but I f we sit boy girl I always go straight to him we hang out at break on occasion
I make friends with Georgia a little
May 2018 Georgia happens he is now called
I’m not sure where to fit this in because it goes in with a lot of the others march – late May flirt mania he catches my eye across class rooms and smiles pulls faces at me during register so I’ll laugh he’ll just do anything to make me laugh .Some people genuinely thought we were dating on the sly ….I wish .I was briefly convinced he was gonna ask me out but it just wasn’t going to happen
April to late May. Michelle is Michelle i don’t feel like laughing so I ignore him after breaks and in lessons were Michelle is also in our class i feel bad but he won’t leave it so I snap .Eventually I always give in and laugh but sometimes he won’t joke with me for weeks at a time .
I tell Courtney at first I didn’t want to but peer pressure happened so I told her and she was fine with it.
~Summer holidays ~
I thought I’d get over it heads up I didnt
I become closer and closer to Georgia
I decide to ask him out by January 2019 you’ll find out why this can’t happen soon
I start to construct the type of notes I want to give to him none of them are good but I don’t really care much
I obsessively discuss every possible situation with Sandra I spend most of my summer thinking of his jawline I can’t help it .
~Summer holidays over ~
September 2018. He says he’s leaving in May …safe to say I am not best impressed to learn this
Late September 2018 my plan is ready i will do it the day before the October holidays start that way he has one day to respond in person of he wants .I have my note. If you read the previous part you know what happened to Isla I’m worried it will be the same this way if he says notes only got a day to spread it before we have two weeks of he’s still going on about it then he’s going to look sad not me that also means I have two weeks to move on . If he says he’s we have four months before we have to decide weather or not to break up when he moved He is a bit big headed times he likes to talk about how many girls liked him in scared I will join this list. I don’t want for him to tell Georgia and hurt her but it’s a chance I will have to take or I’ll never move on i just have to bite the bullet and do it . I m going to face time all the friends I mentioned before minus Georgia so that I have people around when I inevitably get rejected which I already anticipated.
When the plan was first out to fever I started a count down it is now a week till I do it I scream SEVEN DAYS KILL ME NOW ar any given opportunity it’s true I would’ve rather died there and then .(coincidentally the 11th is also my birthday )
October 13th At a friends birthday party she talks about another girl who asks him out and how she wouldn’t have been as hurt if she’s said something before doing it .Not that she should need permission he’s not even hers. Anyway I decide to tell her after I do it before he does .I find a loop hole so she won’t be as mad I only tell him I like him I never ask him if he likes me or if he’ll go out with me that way of we end up dating it his fault .(great reasoning )
18th of October well I suppose we’ll find out
thanks for reading guys I’m going to upload more soon I’m sorry if this isn’t your kind of thing this probably seem s childish and so cheesy honestly I will probably want to slap my self when I look back on this but don’t we all get embarrassed by our last selves everyone reading this most likely thinks it’s stupid that I turned this into a military operation but autism plus and nerves don’t go well they create an avalanche of anxiety so I had to plan so that I wouldn’t back out..My life has become something out of a romcom honestly any way I hope to see you soon good bye my lovely non existent readers – Rose X